Bukan Drama minggu ini...

To my previous entry,
JoKontan said...
Id-he,You're one helluva Strong Man, mentally. I can learn a lot from you.Teh Tarik on August ? Raju ?Take Care..
3:50:00 AM

And to that have replied
Idham said...
JoKontae:) no...noo...i am not that strong Jo...mlm sabtu ada emegency sikit...sesak dan sussah bernafas...tapak tangan dan muka pucat...terus ke hospital...tiba sana jer..depa masukkan oxigen di muka...an injek kasik turun blood pressure yg memuncak...doktor kata anxiety attack...nasib baik selamat! pheewwww...syukur demi anak2...aku masih hidup Jo....abe id-he
8:45:00 AM

Glad I have LiL's shoulder to lean on!
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What happened last Saturday was scarry to say the least. At about 6pm when I was clearing up my desk preparing to go home after a normal day's work, I had difficulty breathing. I stood up upright and tried to breath normally - I could not draw in the air. My breath came in short shallow spurts. My palms turned white. My body cold. And I was dizzy I had to lean onto the walls. I panic!
The first peson I called was my boss, he did not pick up the phone. I then called Mr RL, my colleague and good friend in the office. He was in a meeting and said he will call back. I then called my doctor. He told me to meet him at the emergency entrance of the hospital. I did not call Lil because I did not want her to panic.

When I got there, the doctor took me into the treatment room immediately, cutting queues I am sure. A nurse came in and without any greetings, put an oxygen mask on my face - the sudden supply of oxygen was like food to my starving systems. I could feel my dizziness improved.
Then a male doctor *not my usual doctor* came in to check my blood pressure. He instructed a nurse to get some medication - soon after he gave me an injection. It was to bring down my blood pressure, he said. The same doctor did an ECG test - the result was normal - Alhamdullillah! Then another nurse came in to prick my finger for a blood sample - testing for my sugar level. Result - normal, I think because no one said anything to me about that.

I stayed there resting and breathing in the oxygen for forty-five hour. In the mean time my colleague Mr RL arrived. He had called back, and my driver had told him that I was in the hospital. He felt so sorry he did not speak to me earlier to find out what I wanted to tell him.
The next day, his wife sent me home-cooked 'capati' with dhal and home cooked soup. So kind of him and his wife - made me grateful to have them as friends and neighbours.

My boss called in the morning to find out how I was doing. I told him, "It is only my head and my heart which are not acting properly". He responded, "I wish you have said it is only your toes or something! Take care of your health !".

Due to what happened, I cancelled my trip to Nairobi.The doctor had given me three days medical leave to rest. I am out of the hospital and decided to rest at home - being nursed by LiL.
The medication prescribed to me make me sleepy and I drift in and out of sleep.

So, Jokontan ....I am not that strong. There has been too much on my mind and too much uncertainties surrounding my future. Something has to give - and this time I am just so grateful to God that it was not my life. It is a couple of days of my work which had to be sacrificed while I rest to recover. Even then, I called my secretary to print and send home the emails!

Ahh, feeling sleepy again. It must be the medicine. Time to hit the pillows before the pillows hit me.

You all take care of yourselves! Money can buy medicine and pay for a hospital bed, but it can't buy health!